II - Christian Life

"I'm not a Christian because I'm strong and have it all together. I'm a Christian because I'M WEAK and admit I need a Savior."

I am once a Roman Catholic and me and my family were attending church every Sunday at St. Michael Parish located at Fort Bonifacio, Taguig City. It feels so good that we are having our family bonding every week even though my parents are both working. I feel so loved because they still managed to get along and have fun with me and my sister once in a while. After church, we usually go to the mall and eat lunch. Back then, I used to be excited every sunday. I find it so perfect, I thought It will last...

I graduated from a Christian School during my elementary. It is when I started serving the Lord as a Christian. I'm still young by that time so I admit I'm not that serious back then. When I reached High School, It is where I realized that serving God is not a game and I should take it seriously. Our church, Grace of Jesus Presbyterian Church is my second home and the people there were my second family.


I attended youth camps and other youth fellowship because I want to grow spiritually. Yes, after those camps, the fire of my passion in serving the Lord burns.

I served as a back-up singer and keyboardist in our church.

We are having our rehearsals every Sunday starting from 6pm until 8pm. The worship service is from 9am until 12pm and sometimes, there's a fellowship after that, usually from 3pm until 5pm. My parents had a problem with my schedule because every Saturday and Sunday, instead of having a rest and staying at home, I was in our church. It was a conflict until now. They can't understand me, maybe because they are still a Catholic. They used to compare Catholic and Christians. They even mentioned the time the catholic worships which is only an hour. At that time, I feel that my freedom of serving God was lost and I feel persecuted which is a little bit exaggerated but who cares, that's what I feel.
I had a hard time getting along with my family because they're bitter about my ministry and we are always arguing.

Moving on...

My mom suffered from stroke three years ago. We were so shocked because of that situation because It's like a dejavu because my dad also suffered from stroke when I was almost a year old. We didn't see that one coming. I used to idolize my mom because she's so smart and very dedicated to our family that caused her to work so hard. I know that my mom is a strong woman. Even though we encounter problems and a lot of arguments, I still love her and I'm very blessed to have her as my mother. At that time, we experienced total downfall. Everyone shed a tear and we even struggle financially. The happy moments we had before? I thought it will last but I think I was wrong.

Because of our situation at that time, I started to question God, "WHY?", of all the families in the world, "WHY US?" I know it is wrong to question  and doubt what God can do especially I'm a Christian but I don't know, it seems that I'm so devastated at that time and I'm starting to lose hope. I think we lost everything. I admit, that my light, shining so bright before is slowly losing it's shine. I may be a weak Christian by that time and I really wanted to gain back the shine I have before. 

I started to bring back what I used to do before. I started to have my daily devotion again and I'm so grateful that I have my second family to comfort me and help me stand again. Yes, those things helped a lot and the shine that I had before started to show again. I learned that our faith may be tested so that we may trust His faithfulness. I know He has His precious plan why He let us face that struggle. Now, I am still a part of the music ministry and the youth ministry in our church which we are referring to as Young Christians in Action. I am also an officer in our ministry, a treasurer to be exact and we are now learning to be a good disciple of Christ.

God doesn't promised that this life is a bed of roses because it's not, instead He promised that He will be there all the days of our lives. Just let Him be the driver of your life and I know that everything will fall into place.

I may not be perfect and I know I fail Him everyday. I make mistakes and I always mess up but God's grace is bigger than my sins.